I decided to make public my living will, which I wrote at the height of my mental and physical abilities. I do so following the decision of the Italian government to prohibit the suspension nutrition and hydration, written decree to prevent the father of Eleanor Englaro to let go of his daughter after seventeen years of vegetative state artificially supported. For some time, since when Giulio Mozzi launched the idea on vibrissae bulletin, I thought to publish it. Today it seems inevitable.
Sometimes I think about death. It happens occasionally, when the mind constructs reality next hypothesis: not a fixed idea, and perhaps twenty-five years is a good thing. I learned that it is wiser to look death in the face to try to understand it for what it is, a common human destiny. I think I feel more serene, despite the discomfort of thinking from the inevitable. The Buddhist doctrine says that the first truth of life is the existence of suffering is called the noble truth , and rightly so. E 'noble because it leads to a clear awareness, that - that my experience - helps avoid the anxiety of the future: it is worthy to be known, taught to accept and allow to dissolve the suffering. Why make their own living wills seems to me an act of conscious civilization. Then make it public is a way to emphasize the legal limbo of unconsciousness in which our society is compelled today.
few months ago I learned that this year I will have to undergo spinal surgery. I am confident that the operation, while challenging, will be fine. I'll close who loves me. However, the possibility of an error on the part of medicine and there is always convenient to put them into account. So, typing these words, I also think it is inevitable that this experience that I will do next.
may happen that one day this year, as the next, as in ten, twenty, thirty, forty, I no longer have to find a way to express rationality, feelings, instincts, and even I think is called state vegetative state, and you will not, presumably, reversible. If you ever happen to ask people who are close to me and are in a position to decide whether or not to pursue this was not to be but make the best decision, made on behalf of their respect to my beliefs and their beliefs. I ask for courage and awareness. The aggressive treatment on someone who will never draw a any real relief because it kept alive (non-conscious) only by machines is not the choice I would do to someone I love: after the time required (which will tell the individual event and medicine, and the empirical evidence) for identifying the conditions stable, after the time required for the acceptance of a situation now final, I find it fair that you decide to go ahead with the natural cycle of life and death.
I'd like to die at home, not in the hospital. I would like my organs were donated to those in need and would like to be cremated. I wish there was peace in doing this, despite its weight, you should live the present, not the past. Thank you, thank you.